I read about moms who had their babies and became faster runners than they ever were before. I imagined using my new found pain tolerance to my advantage. Little did I know that this was not in the cards for me. Trying balance my family, full-time and part-time jobs, and find the mental capacity to focus on running is tough! I remember the 2-a-day workouts Pre-baby and myself pushing deeper into the pain cave. I loved those days! But I'm so far removed from that. I am working hard to get back there but I'm allowing myself the time to do it.
It's a constant battle in my head. I should be faster. I used to be faster. It's so much negativity! Instead, I need to give my body the appreciation it deserves. Yes, it brought me to an Ironman 70.3 world championship but it also created the most amazing little boy I could have asked for. The human body is an incredible thing and I can't wait to see what else I can do with it!
My current goal is to run. Run a bunch of races to remind myself of the joy of toe-ing the line and pushing to see what my best is for that day. I'm using my summer to build and strengthen for the Santa Rosa Marathon. And after that, join my teammates at The California International Marathon.
I know I placed lots of expectations on myself but I'm at a point that I want to push my body and mind. I don't want to hold back. There is more that this momma can do and I can't wait to find out what that is!
